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Shoot the Humans First

Part 1


Chapter 1

The lizards wanted to frag the lieutenant, which pissed me off, because I knew it meant they had to do me too. How is that fair? Did I get the unit lost halfway up a mountain and then pinned down by shellfire? No, I didn't. But they had to kill me too. Otherwise, I'd report they killed an officer and High Command would send a pointy letter to the lizard brass. Officers are expensive.

I could have slept, even with the shelling, but I made myself stay awake. Boots on, pack on, helmet on, rifle in my hands. And I watched the lizards sitting around the heaters and hissing at each other, flicking glances from their big yellow eyes at the lieutenant and me.

I smiled at them, like I was their mate.

"What you lads talking about?"

They looked at me for a long time. Most of them didn't speak Earth, so couldn't know what I'd just said anyway. Finally the corporal spoke.

"Females, Sergeant Jadeth." He hissed the s sounds like a snake.

Yeah, sure you are, boys.

The lieutenant didn't have any trouble staying awake. Everyone knows the lizards are touchy buggers and he'd got fifteen of their pals barbecued down in the valley two days earlier. Now he couldn't get the rest of them back to base. He should be scared. The scaly bastards would probably eat him. Most of them looked scrawny anyway. Probably only joined up to get regular meals.

Soon as it all kicked off I'd be gone. I've always been good at getting out from under right before the non-survivable shit hits. Skills honed from years of experience.

But the damn lieutenant nearly screwed that for me. Soon as one of them came at him with a knife the lieutenant grabbed me by the arm and shoved me in front of him. The knife glanced off my body armour, but I knew I wouldn't be so lucky next time.

The shell exploded just as I raised my rifle. It seemed like a couple of metres over our heads, though it was probably more like two hundred. Shrapnel rained down and the lizards scattered, screaming in weird, high shrieks that I'd still not got used to. I looked myself over and even though I'd felt shrapnel patter down on my helmet I hadn't a scratch on me.

The lieutenant was a different story. A much gorier story.

No sense in pissing about here then, I decided, and took off like a blue streak. Dodging the chunky bits of lizard and lieutenant that fouled the ground, I ran into the darkness, searching for cover. I engaged night vision mode on my helmet visor. The lizards didn't have that, but they had better natural night vision than humans, so I couldn't rely on the darkness to hide me.

They yelled a lot behind me and I tried to get my head around it. Never been much good with the languages. Were they pursuing me, or were they too busy trying to take care of their wounded?

I stopped and crouched behind a rock. After a moment I spotted them, two of them, coming after me. They moved around the rocks and stunted shrubs, but were just a bit clumsy compared to me. I'm trained to move around silent and invisible, leaving no trace. Unless I lay down and went to sleep and one of them tripped over me they wouldn't find me.

I knew they were after me for revenge now, not to cover up a murder they hadn't even managed to pull off. Right now they just wanted to stick their knives into some soft human flesh. I kept moving downhill. Things looked hot in the valley. I could see the flashes of fire fights and rockets from up here. But that meant I had a chance to hook up with a friendly unit, maybe even an all human unit, and get my sorry arse back to base. Out here for a week and I hadn't taken my boots off once.

A few minutes later I lost the lizards and breathed easier. I slowed my pace, wary of the treacherous ground underfoot. Loose screes of stone could give way under me any time and take me off down the mountain a lot faster than I'd gone up it.

We'd climbed up the damn thing because the lieutenant thought there was a pass over into the next valley. He'd been wrong wrong wrong and like a typical bloody officer he wouldn't admit it and kept us marching until we reached a dead end. A dead end, which just happened to be right under where two artillery positions had decided to start blasting shells at each other. The shelling cut off our retreat and we were in prime position to catch any that fell short.

Though I felt knackered my training told me to keep moving. Don't sleep in the open. Find cover. Find someplace safe, where you won't get your nodding head blown right off. I had to wonder if anywhere on this whole damn planet qualified. So I trudged on through the darkness. Way above me the shells kept on falling, and I wondered if any of my unit was still breathing.

The explosions were dull and muffled now, so I engaged the scanner mode on my visor and started watching out for a cave or even just an overhang in the rocks. I didn't want to get into the valley until first light. Less shelter down there and it would be hard to find a friendly unit in the dark. Besides I'd likely get myself shot if I approached at night without a password.

There. More an indent than a cave, a metre or so deep, and not much taller, but sheltered from the wind and dark as a tomb. Tomb? Oh, nice, Jadeth, real cheerful thought. I crawled into it, took off my pack and took my bedroll out. I folded that to sit on. The air wasn't too cold, but sitting against cold rock would leech the heat right of out my body.

I checked my watch. At least six hours until dawn. Six hours sleep would just about fix me up. I set an alarm on my watch, then drank some water and scarfed down half of an emergency combat ration bar. Checking my pack I found I only had three more of those. I started to regret not having the time to snag the ones from the lieutenant's pack before I bugged out of there.

Time to rest. I put the rest of the bar away and settled down, leaning back against my pack. My rifle lay across my knees and my hand lay near the trigger. I can't even start to count the number of times I've slept in this position. All I know is it's too many in comparison to the times I've slept in a nice warm bed with a nice warm girl.

~/~/~

The light, or perhaps the quiet, woke me before the watch alarm did. Down in the valley smoke rose from several places, but the guns had stopped. So had the shelling up the mountain.

First things first. I ate the rest of that protein bar while I heated up a cupful of my water and made a brew. The tea helped me get my eyes all the way open and I dug in a pocket of my jacket for my Snapper. I could access maps on it, info about what I could eat around here. Might even manage to get the communications working, if I was outside of the jammers and maybe get in touch with some friendlies.

"Oh shit."

A piece of shrapnel stuck into the back of the Snapper, one sharp point poking right through the shattered screen inside the front cover. Without the Snapper in the way the shrapnel could have penetrated my armour. Well it had kept me from getting a chunk of metal in my belly, but on the other hand without the information stored in the Snapper I could be really screwed out here.

Okay, spilt milk and all, no sense crying over. I looked at the broken Snapper. Just useless weight now. But if I dumped it I'd end up getting charged for a new one. I already had enough bloody stoppages. Combat damage was the only excuse for getting a new one gratis, but you had to prove it. I shoved it back in my pocket. Then I thought for a second and put it in a different pocket.

I pulled my visor down, tapped it to put it in magnify mode and scanned the valley, looking for movement. I soon spotted some. A lot of movement, possibly a column of troops moving through the vegetation. I'd aim for that and if they were friendlies, I was golden. If not I'd follow unseen and for damn sure they'd run into somebody on my side soon enough.

I loaded my kit into my pack, got up and settled it on my back. My rifle hung on its strap in front of me. The sun was already bright in a sky the colour of emeralds. I increased the level of shade on my helmet visor and left behind my rocky bolthole.

~/~/~

Well, Jadeth, I told myself as I sank down onto a rock, you're going to die. No two ways about it. A day and a night and another day now wandering around this fucking valley. And did I mention days around here are thirty seven hours long? I'd not seen a sign of intelligent life in all that time. I'd heard it, plenty of it. Gunfire, rocket fire, but never managed to find any of the people, of whatever species, who were kicking up the fuss.

I'd found enough water to keep me going, but food proved trickier. I'd eaten all the combat ration bars before nightfall the day before. They told us that one of those things could fill a man up for a day, but, in my humble opinion, as one of the poor bloody unfortunates who had to eat the things, that was a load of bollocks. Or maybe, like my instructors used to say, I'm just a greedy bastard.

I'd racked my brain to remember what I could eat around here, plant wise. Mostly I just went by my old drill sergeant's advice.

"If it tastes crap it's probably okay, if it tastes good, prepare to die." Well that about fitted in with what I'd learnt of life in my thirty two years in it. That life liked to screw with you. It sure screwed with Sarge. Only man I know who died of cynicism. When someone pointed out he'd just walked into a live firing range his last words were:

"Those amateurs can't hit the broadside of."

I'd actually reached the other side of the valley now, a good sixty klicks from where I started and felt worn out, hungry, filthy, and pissed off. The last time I'd had this much fun I'd been having a big hunk of grenade shrapnel taken out of my leg by a hung-over field medic.

Well I had a couple of choices. Climb up this side of the valley and before it grew too dark try to get a fix on a better landmark than yet another BFR. Or make camp now and figure something out in the morning. I suspected I'd wandered way off from the combat zone and into some wilderness area that nobody would fight over, there being no big world shortage of bugs and stunted bushes made entirely of thorns. Then again I'd seen people fight over bits of land not worth spitting on, so what the hell do I know? Left that sort of thinking to the officers, that's what the buggers are paid for.

I'd just about decided on the camping out option when I saw the light. A dim glow, a few miles off, along the lower slope of the valley side. I watched it for a minute and it stayed still. A lantern. I grinned like a maniac. A lantern meant a camp. Friendly or hostile, right now I didn't give a fuck. At least they'd feed me.

I climbed back onto my feet and engaged the night vision on the visor. It fritzed out a couple of times before it settled down. The batteries wanted replacing. I had a couple somewhere in my pack. That could wait for now though. I set off for that beautiful glow.

 


Chapter 2

I approached with caution, hungry but not suicidal. My night vision flared and I turned it off as I looked into a small clearing in the bushes. Several tents were set up, a few lanterns scattered around. Humans, six of them, four men and two women, moved around or sat on the ground. I sighed with relief at that. Humans, so I could assume probably friendlies. I wasn't one hundred percent sure though, because they were a weird looking bunch. Different uniforms, a mix of Marines and star ship crew by the look of it and one of them actually in civvies. None of them showed any insignia.

Lying low behind a bush, on dry grass that prickled my face, I used the magnifier and checked out the tents. A heap of packs lay by one of them, all various sizes and issued by different units.

Could they be deserters? We didn't get many. What was the point? Where would you go? Just earn yourself a demotion and six months in the glasshouse.

Whoever they might be they had food, and the scent of the meat cooking over an open fire drove me mad as it drifted on the breeze. Might as well introduce myself and finagle a dinner invite.

I stood up, checked my rifle and approached the camp, watching for guards. Not a sign. Sloppy, very sloppy. Which told me this lot weren't engaged in the action going on in the area. Deserters, they had to be, on their way out of here. But where did the star ship crew come into that? And I'd not heard anything about Marines stationed nearby.

I walked into the camp unchallenged. As I emerged into the glow of the lanterns the man in civvies saw me first. A skinny looking fella, with light brown hair worn too long for a soldier. He gasped and his jaw dropped. The others turned and jumped to their feet. I held my hands wide, well away from my rifle.

"Don't shoot, I'm friendly," I told them. I smiled. "You boys and girls are pretty slack. I shouldn't have got this close without somebody pointing a gun at me."

"You didn't."

The voice came from behind me and I spun, ducking, bringing up the rifle. Just on the edge of the camp a woman pointed a pistol at me. She wore a Marine uniform. I got myself under control and straightened up, taking my hands away from the rifle again, letting it hang on its strap.

"Friendly," I said again.

"Identify yourself," the woman ordered. No insignia, just like the others, but the tone of her voice told me right away that she was an officer.

"Staff Sergeant, 54th armoured infantry, serial number -"

"Name?" she interrupted me. I was surprised. Most officers didn't care about your name. "Hey you" being good enough for them.

"Jadeth."

She moved closer, looked me up and down for a while. I returned the favour. Five six, lean and fit with short red brown hair and blue green eyes. Can't say I'd kick her out of bed.

"Maiga," she said. "Captain, Marine Corps. You look like shit, Sergeant."

I saluted as soon as she said "Captain", but she didn't return the salute. I glanced over my shoulder for a second. A couple of the others stood close behind me and I thought they had weapons out.

"My unit was hit two days ago, ma'am, all wiped out. I was assigned with a Lieutenant commanding a platoon of liza… er… Muaan Qacia. Got hit by --"

"I don't care." She waved a hand, cutting me off. "You want something to eat, Jadeth?"

"Very much, ma'am." Her attitude had me baffled, but I didn't care if she was barking mad, as long as she let me have a crack at that stew pot.

"Stop calling me ma'am. Call me captain or Maiga." She holstered her gun and walked right past me to the rest of the group. I turned to see them all looking at me nervously. "Relax," she told them, "Just a stray. Give him some food." I frowned. Stray? Cheeky cow. She looked around. "Where is he?"

Another Marine, a young man, dark skinned and keen looking pointed at a tent.

"Said he was tired."

"Thanks, Rish." She jerked a thumb back at where I stood like some kind of museum exhibit with the others goggling at me. "Look after our guest." She went to the tent he'd pointed out and crawled inside.

Rish came over and offered me his hand. Another officer, I reckoned, reckoned they all were. Something about the way they looked at me. Scared of me. Aside from Maiga and the bloke in civvies, who looked mid-thirties, the rest were all under thirty and the only thing that scares a young officer more than the enemy is a sergeant.

I shook Rish's hand and returned his nervous smile with one that probably scared him even more. He wrinkled his nose when he got close to me. Well yeah, I'd not had a bath for a week, what the hell was I supposed to smell like? Maybe I could clean up here later, but right now if I didn't get at that food soon someone would pay.

"Sergeant, ah, sit here, won't you?"

I sat, shedding helmet and pack. A woman filled a bowl of stew and passed it to me along with a spoon. I gave her a big smile and she blushed. Cute piece, Middle Eastern looking, star ship crew. Rish handed me some bread. A bit stale, but right now I'd have eaten it even if it had green fur growing on it. I shut out the voices of the weirdo squad and just lost myself in the food, speaking only to ask for seconds. And thirds.

After I ate, I shook out my bedroll and lay on the ground, near the fire. One of the youngsters suggested I could use a tent but I waved that off. I liked the sky over my head. Liked to look at the stars and wonder which of them might be home.

~/~/~

I woke to dawn light casting a sickly green glow over the horizon. Looked like rain. I sat up and stretched. Real food and a proper kip definitely made a difference to my outlook. I still didn't know what the weirdo squad's game might be, but if they could help me get back to base then they could do whatever they liked.

It crossed my mind that they might be some sort of black ops unit out here up to mischief, but I dismissed that. Aside from Maiga maybe, who seemed to have some clue, they came across too amateurish for that. I'd run into black ops and intelligence units before. They made you happy just to get away with your skin still on. This lot didn't inspire that kind of fear.

"Good morning, Sergeant."

I looked across the now low fire to see a man standing there watching me. He wore civilian clothes but he wasn't the same fella I'd seen last night. This one was taller, at least six feet. His blonde hair reached right down to his shoulders. Didn't see that very often.

"Coffee?" He offered me.

"You bet." I thought about adding "sir". He had the same officer vibe as the rest of them.

He poured some coffee from a pot that stood on the stones around the fire and handed me a cup. His hands looked soft, but had chipped and dirty nails. He smiled as he handed over the cup. His blue eyes looked amused about something.

"Thanks."

"You're welcome, Jadeth isn't it?"

"Yeah."

"My name's Ilyan. I'm pleased to meet you."

"Sure. You too." I sipped the coffee. No rank? I could believe this one was a full bird colonel, though maybe one that sat behind a desk. I watched him as he sat down across the fire from me. Who the hell are these people? Who the hell is this guy?

"Excuse me not sitting any closer, Jadeth." He smiled. "I hope I don't offend you when I say it's clear that you've been away from base for several days."

I grimaced. "I guess I'm pretty ripe. Any chance of a clean up around here?"

"I think that could be arranged." He drank his coffee, still watching me. I stretched some more, rotated my head making the bones crack gruesomely and making Ilyan grimace.

"Any breakfast on?" I asked.

"The others will be up soon," Ilyan said. "We'll get some then. Will you want to get on your way after you've cleaned up?"

I shrugged. "To be honest, I haven't a clue where I am or how to get back to HQ." I took out my broken Snapper and showed it to him. "No maps. I've been trying to tag up with a unit, but I swear the bastards are all hiding from me." I grinned at him. "Maybe they can smell me coming."

He laughed then turned more serious, looking at the Snapper.

"That was pretty close, wasn't it?"

"You're not wrong there, mate. Um, sir," I added, trying to rein myself in a bit. This lad had a way about him that made me relax. I had to watch that, I still didn't know what the story was here, had to be on guard.

"You don't have to call me sir. Ilyan is fine."

"Okay."

"You were assigned to a native platoon? Maiga told me."

"Yeah," I nodded. "Me and a lieutenant. We got hit by a shell."

"And the rest were all killed?"

"Yeah."

Well let's not mention that some of them were still alive when I bugged out of there. Hey, the bastards were going to eat me, why the hell shouldn't I run?

We drank our coffee in silence for a while. A cold breeze started up, stirred his long hair. After a while he put down his coffee cup.

"When were you last home on Earth, Jadeth?"

I had to think about it for a moment, trying to recall. "About five years ago I think. Why?"

"Do you miss it?"

I thought about the question. Did I miss it? One place is pretty much like another isn't it? Except…

"The sky," I said. "I miss the sky." I looked up into the green sky above us. It was beautiful actually. Silver streaked clouds scudded across it. Beautiful, but wrong. "Nowhere else has that blue, you know. Never the same, waking up to a sky the wrong colour." I sighed. I remembered training, camping out and waking up to the blue. Nothing like it. "When were you last there?" I asked, wanting to ask him if the sky was still blue. That was stupid, what else would it be?

"Three months ago."

"Barely had time to miss it then."

"No. I hope I'll get to go back one day." He looked wistful suddenly, sighed.

I frowned. "Why wouldn't you?"

He looked at me and smiled. "Long story."

I glanced at the sky that the sun lightened only slowly. No movement came from the rest of the weirdo squad yet.

"Long day," I said, looking back at him. Come on, pal, spill it, what the hell are you lot doing out here?

"Yes. Yes it is, I suppose." He poured himself more coffee, sipped it and winced. Either cold or stewed, I guessed. He didn't speak again at once, just sat there looking thoughtful. I almost gave up on it and started thinking about that clean up, when he finally spoke.

"Jadeth, what would you say if I told you I think the aliens will turn on us?"

I shrugged. "Wouldn't surprise me."

He frowned. "It wouldn't?"

I grabbed a stick from the ground and poked the fire a bit then held my hands out to it, trying to warm up.

"To be honest, that's what happened to my unit. The L.T. fucked up bad and the lizards took the hump and tried to frag us. Can't blame the scaly sods."

Ilyan stared at me, looking shocked.

"So how did you get away?"

"Oh there was a shell, like I said, right when they were about to gut us." I grinned. "Kind of distracted them a bit. Shell killed the lieutenant and I had it away on my toes before the lizards got their wits back."

"Right," Ilyan said slowly. Then he stopped staring at me and pulled himself together. "But what I mean is something on a larger scale. And not just the Muaan Qacia, but the Kitsnujitar, the Chiamajan and the Ayokidishi."

The names of "the big four", as us grunts called the major powers, tripped off his tongue naturally and with the accents and pronunciation perfect. Shame he spoke so beautifully about such a bunch of crap.

"What all of them? Turn against us all at the same time?"

It seemed unlikely. Right now humans fought on the side of the Muaan Qacia in one of their usual territorial disputes with the Chiamajan. Elsewhere we worked for the Ayokidishi in some religious themed trouble with the Kitsnujitar. Of course, if the Chias or the Kits offered us enough cash then things would change sharpish.

"I believe," Ilyan said, "that they are about to settle their differences, at least temporarily, and deal with Earth." He took another sip of coffee and looked back at me. "And when I say 'deal with', I mean 'destroy'."

Strange thing, he didn't look like a madman.

"Are you nuts?" I shook my head. "The Kits blew up the Oki's capital city. Twice! The Qacians and the Chia have eaten each other's young. Every one of the lizards is under a general order to kill any Chia they find."

"The Chiamajan and the Kitsnujitar are under a general order too. In battle, always kill the humans first. They know we're the most dangerous."

"Yeah, well, we are," I said and grinned. "We're the best and they all know it."

"But twenty years ago we fought alongside the Kits, against the Muaan Qacia. And the Qacians had that same general order."

I shrugged. "So that's a sign that we're good isn't it? It's just the same way we're trained to kill the officers first."

"Of course. But what if they all decided to apply that order at the same time? Even the ones we're currently working for?"

"But they would never team up!" I argued. "Have you ever met any of them? They hate each other more than they could ever hate us."

"Are you sure about that?"

I shook my head. "Who the hell are you? Where the hell do you get such a mental idea?" I laughed. "Don't tell me. You had a vision of the future!"

He smiled that wry smirk again.

"Perhaps." He glanced over at the tent I'd seen Maiga go into last night as she came out of it, stretching. She nodded to him, ignored me and strolled off to where someone had pointed out the latrine to me last night.

More movement followed, a few other people emerged, including the other civilian. He looked grouchy and severely mussed.

"Good morning, Tesla," Ilyan said. "Tesla, Jadeth here wants to know who I am. Why don't you tell him?"

Tesla glanced between the two of us, and then spoke.

"You're the Prophet."
 


Chapter 3

Just my luck, to run into not just weirdoes, but actual full-on nutters. Maiga came back then and started bossing people about to get some food on the go, so I didn't have a chance to ask Ilyan any more questions. Not sure I wanted to really. I knew crazies when I saw them.

After we ate they boiled up a pot of water for me and I took it round behind a tent to wash. I'd started dressing again in my last set of fresh clothes when the Tesla bloke poked his head around the corner.

"Are you decent?"

I didn't even know what the hell that meant.

"What can I do you for?" I asked, pulling my undershirt over my head. As he approached he tripped on my boots and I scowled at him.

"Watch it," I snapped. Nobody touches the boots.

"Sorry." He looked at my gear, which I'd unpacked and laid out. "My, you manage to fit a lot into your pack don't you? How do you carry it all?"

Stupid question. Doesn't he know a soldier carries his life on his back?

"Do you want something?" He got on my nerves. Weasely little sort.

"I just thought I should explain what I meant before when I called Ilyan 'the prophet.' I don't want you to get the wrong end of the stick."

I thought I had a pretty firm grip on the right end of the stick, but I let him talk. He didn't look much good for anything else.

"Ilyan is an intelligence analyst. I am too."

"Spooks, huh?" Might have guessed.

"Yes." He laughed. "Spooks. That's what you people call us, don't you?"

I started packing my gear away, thinking about the phrase 'you people'.

"Well Ilyan's speciality is making predictions. About where trouble may occur. He's very good at it. Very good. That's why he ended up being nicknamed 'the Prophet'. In fact, well I came up with that nickname. As a joke really. But it caught on." He smirked, apparently proud of himself. When I didn't answer he went on. "Anyway, Ilyan was so good that High Command themselves considered him a top advisor."

I frowned. A man who had the ear of High Command and now he's camping out in a combat zone on Muaan Qacia? How did that happen, huh? Maybe they noticed he'd gone howling off round the bend? I sat down and started putting on my boots. Tesla didn't seem to mind me not answering him, he still rattled on.

"Then he told them about the prediction, the one he told you about. He says he analysed the data twenty different ways and they all led him to the same conclusion. Within a year the big four will settle their differences and come after us."

"Sounds unlikely," I said.

"High Command thought the same. They rejected it out of hand!"

"Yeah, well High Command usually knows what they're doing."

"I've checked the data too," Tesla said, his face turning serious. "I have to agree with Ilyan."

"Oh well then, that's me convinced."

His face darkened into a deep scowl.

"There's no need to take that tone." He gestured impatiently. "I suppose there's not much chance someone like you would understand."

I stood up pretty fast then. I was only a couple of inches taller than him but he backed off quick, almost falling over on the rough ground. I smirked.

Maiga appeared at his shoulder, scowling at me.

"Tesla, get your stuff together, we're moving out." He nodded meekly, gave me a dirty look and hurried off. Maiga turned to me. "Leave him alone." I heard a clear warning in her voice.

"Nothing would make me happier. Ma'am." She added to the morning's collection of dirty looks and then folded her arms and watched me finish packing my kit.

"What are your plans, Sergeant?"

"Try and find a friendly unit and get back to base."

"Right. And when you get back?"

I looked up. Her hand rested on her sidearm. I saw her point.

"Who the hell would believe that I met a bunch of weirdoes camping out in a combat zone? Must have been hallucinating. I get like that when I'm hungry."

She took her hand off the pistol. I heaved my pack up and settled it on my shoulders.

"Well see you, ma'am. Have fun with the nutter patrol."

I'd taken five steps when she called out "wait." I stopped and looked back.

"What makes you think you'll find a unit?"

"I found you lot."

She smiled and glanced back over her shoulder, gave me a wry look.

"Yeah, that's something to boast about." She looked thoughtful and I waited. "Look, we're on our way to an infantry unit, I'm pretty certain I know where they are. Why not tag along? You can share our food and help me keep my people from getting killed, and then we'll leave you with them."

I thought about it for a moment. Nutters this lot may be, but they had food. And her "pretty certain" about the location of a unit beat my "zero clue".

That was the moment right then, when I made the choice that changed everything.

"Okay, whatever."

~/~/~

I took rearguard. That way I could keep an eye on all of them. The military sorts kept up a pretty good pace, but the spooks were slower and obviously found the going rough. They needed to toughen up if they were going to hang around in the wilds.

After an hour or so Ilyan stopped to adjust his boots. I caught up and waited for him. He smiled up at me and then stood up and we set off walking together.

"So you've decided to join us for a while, Sergeant?"

"For a while."

"Good. We could use an experienced man like you. Aside from Maiga I'm afraid most of my group are rather young and inexperienced."

"Yeah, well you've got me till we meet up with this unit she thinks she knows about." I nodded to where Maiga led the way.

"Oh, she knows about them. Their officer is a friend of hers. He's agreed to let me talk to them."

I frowned at him. "About your prediction?"

"Yes. I believe Tesla explained a little more about it to you." I glanced at Tesla, who seemed to be having trouble with the bugs, swatting like mad.

"Yeah, said you told High Command your idea, and that they weren't having any of it. I suppose then you got the hump and came out here to…" I shrugged. To do what? He'd not explained that part yet.

"Got the hump?"

"Took the huff, sulked."

"Ah. Yes, I, um." He grimaced. "I suppose there's an element of that. I was accustomed to being listened to. And when they wouldn't listen, well then, my ego may have been bruised."

"See, that's the part I don't get yet. What are you doing out here? Long way to come for a sulk."

"Yes." He looked thoughtful for a while, eventually spoke again. "Well, back at university they taught me there are two ways to approach a problem. Top down and bottom up."

"Yeah? Sounds like the way I approach the problem of women." I grinned and he looked mildly shocked, which made me grin some more.

"Er, quite. Anyway, I'd tried the top, High Command, and that didn't work. So I decided on a different approach."

"The bottom. Well…" I looked around at the grim terrain and the distant smoke rising into a sky now heavy with rain clouds. "You found the bottom all right."

He sighed, looking around. Maybe he missed the blue sky too. "Yes. But what I mean is I want to get out and meet and talk to the troops at the sharp end. The humans who are out here fighting other people's wars, when they should be back home, preparing to defend Earth."

"So, what are you going to tell them to do?" I asked, intrigued. "You gonna stand up in front of a bunch of grunts and tell them to mutiny?"

"I'm going to tell them to stop fighting."

I laughed for at least a minute. He waited me out, not even looking at me. I guessed he'd had the same reaction before.

"Stop fighting?" I said in the end. "Stop fighting?" I almost started laughing again. "You really are bonkers. Fighting is what people are for."

"Really?"

"Yeah. Didn't you go to school?"

"For too long I suspect."

"So you want us to stop fighting. And do what?"

"Go home. Go back to Earth and prepare. Oh, we will have to fight again. But at home."

I looked at him long and hard. He'd lost the amused little smirk and the look in his eyes that suggested something funny was going on that I couldn't even understand.

"You're really serious about this?" I asked, surprised by the hush in my voice.

"It is going to happen. All we can do is fight to defend ourselves when it does. If enough of us are not at home to fight then Earth will be destroyed and the remaining humans hunted down until we are all gone." He looked away, looked ahead again, walked on in silence. I noticed he'd started limping slightly, probably blisters. But he kept walking.

These intelligence types. They had it pretty cushy. Nice accommodations, good pay. And this one, top advisor to High Command, he must have been living the high life. And he gave all that up for this?

"What about the others?" I asked, nodding at the weirdo squad.

"Tesla is an old friend of mine. He believed in me and he agreed to come with me when I… left Earth."

He almost said 'ran' there. Maybe doesn't want to think of himself as running.

"The rest are people we've encountered on the way, who've decided to follow because they believe me."

My gaze instantly settled on Maiga. Nice view from the back.

"Because they believe you," I said with a touch of cynicism in my voice I'll admit. "No other reason?"

He frowned at me, some disapproval there.

"Maiga agreed to come with me before she and I began --"

"None of my business." I cut him off. More than I wanted to know about.

Perhaps Maiga sensed us looking at her because she glanced back and then turned and gestured to the group, called out.

"Break. Ten minutes." The others stopped and dumped their packs. Tesla sank to the ground and clutched at one of his feet groaning. An Oriental looking woman, sat beside him. Tanashi, I recalled her being introduced as, star ship officer, doctor. She ran a med scanner over Tesla as he complained about his feet.

Ilyan and me caught up with the others from rearguard position and Maiga came to meet us.

"Want to take point for a while, Sergeant?"

"Sure, if I knew where the hell we're heading."

She scowled at me and pointed to a nasty jagged looking outcropping sticking out of the ground, about ten klicks ahead.

"Just get us to that BFR. Think you can manage that?"

"I'll give it a go, ma'am. Think the kindergarten class can keep up with me?"

"We'll give it a go." She stalked off.

Ilyan watched her leave, maybe appreciating that nice back view too, and then he turned to me.

"What's a BFR? Is that a military term?"

I shook my head and laughed. "Shit, you lot really are screwed out here." I pointed at the outcropping. "That's a BFR."

"It's a rock," he said, not getting it.

"What kind of rock?"

"Damn, I knew I should have brought my Big Book of Geology with me." He smiled at me sidelong and I grinned.

"Nah, I meant size."

"Oh. Well, I suppose it's a… big rock?" He frowned, face thoughtful. Then he lit up and grinned back at me. "Oh! It's a Big Fucking Rock!"

And I laughed because, well hell, he just sounded so pleased with himself for figuring it out. Maybe he didn't have a clue how to survive out here, but he caught on fast.

He glanced at his watch, winked at me and turned back to the others. "Come on then, everyone," he called out, clapping his hands. "Sergeant Jadeth is going to lead us to the Big Fucking Rock."

They stared at him like he was crazy, but started getting up.

"That was never ten minutes," Tesla moaned. Rish and another Marine, Rin (did they assign these guys alphabetically I wondered) helped him to his feet. I started to move ahead, and then I stopped.

"Ilyan. Just tell me one thing." I paused, shook my head. "Why? Why would they turn on us? We fight their wars for them. They pay in money instead of blood. Why would they want that to change?"

"Later, Sergeant," Ilyan said, the serious expression on his face again. "When we meet your colleagues. Then I'll tell you and them why I have the blood of millions on my hands."
 


Chapter 4

"Five hundred years ago humanity accepted its destiny."

Ilyan stood in front of an infantry platoon, most of them sat on the ground. In the dark and under their helmets and armour I could barely pick out the men from the women. Could pick up their attitude though. They were sitting still for the crazy spook cabaret act only because their officer ordered it.

"Humans are good at fighting, we've always been good at it. Why not accept that and profit from it?"

"We all went to school, pal," someone shouted out.

"Yeah, cut to the chase, bud."

"All right." The glow of a lantern threw Ilyan's refined features into sharp relief. Behind him deep in shadow Maiga lurked, scanning the crowd. She didn't seem to be listening to him. Heard it all before, I guess. Me, I leant back on my pack, listened to the speech, and wondered who would laugh first.

"I am an intelligence analyst. I made predictions about where trouble would break out. That way our envoys could be in place quickly to negotiate a deal. To get us the job of fighting the war for one of the sides. It doesn't matter which side. Whoever pays the most."

I yawned. We know all this too. We're a mercenary army, a mercenary species. We get it. The other grunts had started fidgeting. At least a couple of them were asleep. Behind me a woman giggled. Not at Ilyan, more at something somebody was doing to her.

"I was good at my job," Ilyan went on. "So damn good I started to get suspicious of myself. How could I have a hundred percent success rate?"

Hundred percent? Bloody hell.

"Predicting the future can never be an exact science. There are too many variables. Yet everywhere I said trouble would happen, it happened. My colleagues started to call me a prophet." I glanced at Tesla who sat at Ilyan's right.

"So I tried an experiment. I picked a place where there was some tension, but that I believed had no immediate likelihood of violence. I wrote a report predicting imminent conflict. I listed the various things that might trigger a war."

He paused and looked around, his face pained now. But he had the full attention of the grunts. He sure had mine.

"A month later the war started. Out of a clear blue sky a skirmish over a family feud escalated into full scale conflict. And we had a man there on the spot, ready to negotiate a contract." He gave a bitter laugh. "But of course we had a man there. He went there to make the trouble happen. I had believed that my work predicted where trouble might happen. But in fact my superiors used it to identify where trouble could be made to happen."

The other soldiers had gone real quiet now and sat watching him intently.

"I wrote that report ten years ago, six months after I started working for intelligence. After the war that I had manufactured broke out I confronted my superiors." The bitter laugh again. "They congratulated me on working out the reality of our work faster than most and offered me a promotion."

Ten years ago? I had expected him to say he had only just figured it out. Not that he'd worked for them for ten years knowing what he knew.

"And I accepted it. You see they explained things to me. They made me believe what we do is justifiable. I talked myself into believing them. Yes, I accepted it for ten years. And then I made a new prediction…"

He started talking about the "prophecy" he'd already explained to me, and the grunts sat spellbound. Not me though, I stopped listening. And not because I already knew about the prophecy but because I started remembering something.

Five years ago I'd been wounded and laid up for a couple of months in a hospital back on Earth. For weeks I lay by a window watching the blue sky, feeling the cool breeze and smelling the sweet grass. Hospitals are about the nicest places on the planet. I didn't want to leave. But in the end I had to and on my first mission back on active service I served in a small squad, acting as bodyguard to a spook going for a meeting. High in some mountains on Kitsnujitar he met a bunch of guys that looked like bandits. Hard to say with the Kits. Their dark grey fur and pointy teeth makes me think of wolves.

At the time I thought they probably had some kind of intel to hand over to him, but I remember that he didn't talk to them for that long. They didn't give him anything. He gave them something though. A box, with locks on it, which the leader of the group handed straight over to the biggest bastard in his gang to carry.

A few days later I heard over the broadcasts that Kit 'terrorists' had blown up a temple or some such place and killed a bunch of other Kit folks. And another couple of weeks after that the whole region was in flames and our "envoys" were deep in negotiations with both sides over who bought our services. "Envoys" is a really just a polite word for 'salesmen'

I remember at the time thinking how dumb the Kits must be, fighting over whose god is best. We kicked the whole religious crap into touch centuries before. Waste of time. But I never gave a second thought to the spook and his meeting in the mountains and his locked box. Never thought that had anything to do with the place suddenly exploding. Now I saw it clear as day. We paid the bandits to destroy a carefully chosen target, pretending to be terrorists. We caused the war, just so we could sell our services to fight in it.

This was why the big four would turn on us. They'd finally figured out that we'd kept them at each other's throats for five hundred years, so we could make money off it. "Let us fight the wars for you," we said. "Let us train you. Let us lead your soldiers in battle." We neglected to mention, "by the way we started this conflict." If just one of them worked it out and got together with the others long enough to compare notes... well you could see how they'd be a bit pissed off.

I looked up at Ilyan. He was explaining something about his data, some evidence about secret talks between the Chias and the Okis. I couldn't really take in the words, my eyes just riveted on his face, his shining eyes. He's not insane, I knew, right then. It's much, much worse than that.

He's right.

~/~/~

That night I dreamt of the blue sky. The sky I watched from that hospital bed. The sky I used to watch as a boy, lying on the grass outside the school barracks. And I dreamt of the eagle. Some of the other kids wanted to go and find its nest. But I knew the eagle lived somewhere in the mountains whose foothills we trained in. We'd never find the nest. I didn't want to, content just to watch it glide and swoop in the sky, watch it stoop and dive.

Sky, so blue, filled my vision until I woke to green Qacian sky and the sounds of the infantry unit packing up ready to head out. Ilyan sat near me, staring ahead. The dark circles around his blue eyes told me he'd not slept.

I got up and put my boots on. Ilyan didn't seem to notice. The grunts had food on the go, so I wandered over and scoffed some fresh bread and some bacon and grabbed a couple of big mugs of coffee. I sipped one as I walked back to where Ilyan sat. When I nudged him with my knee he looked up, startled, and I handed him the mug.

"Thank you," he said, with a weak smile. He held the mug with both hands, warming them, chasing away the morning chill.

I sat down beside him, didn't speak for a moment, just drank coffee and stared. Between the pair of us we had a classic case of the early morning stares.

"You worked for them for ten years," I said, quietly. "You worked for them all that time knowing that you were causing the wars."

He looked at me, and then nodded. He understood. No more small talk.

"Yes."

"It's not only aliens die in those wars." I looked around at the grunts breaking camp.

"I know." His voice nearly a whisper.

"What now?"

"Now I go on. To the next unit, to the next planet and I try to make them understand, try to make them do something about it."

"Do you think it will work?"

He put his head down. "I have to try."

"Yeah," I said. "Yeah, you do." He looked up at me again. I got up and started to gather my gear.

"Well, good luck, Jadeth," Ilyan said, sadness in his voice. "I enjoyed meeting you."

I clicked my tongue and shook my head as I fastened the chin strap of my helmet.

"I thought you were meant to be clever?" I shouldered my pack and walked over to Maiga who was stood talking to the infantry unit's commander.

"Morning, Captain. Which big fucking rock are we heading for today?"

~/~/~

By lunchtime I'd started wondering what the hell I'd done. A morning's stroll with the weirdo squad left me wishing I'd stuck with the infantry, got my arse back to base and just forgotten about Ilyan.

Maiga had been giving me the evil eye since we'd started. When I told her I was tagging along permanently she'd taken Ilyan aside and flapped her lips at him for a good ten minutes. Too far off for me to hear, but I guessed she wasn't telling him what a brilliant idea it was for me to join the party.

Tesla spent the morning glowering when he wasn't actually whining. He slowed the whole group down. Even more than the star ship officers, who at least were fit.

Along with the doc, Tanashi, and the tasty Arab bird, named Jia, there was a boy, well barely more than that, an ensign, called Vimal. Vim they called him. He was full of vim all right.

Then we had the interchangeable marines, Rish and Rin, the only thing you could use to tell them apart was their skin colour. One each of black and white. Maybe I'd eventually remember which colour went with which name.

I took my lunch away from the others, found myself a nice flat rock to sit on at the edge of the forest clearing where we'd set up a temp camp site.
I needed some time alone to think about an important question. Why the hell am I teaming up with these crackpots? Okay, so I thought Ilyan may be right. Okay, maybe I even felt sure of that. But so what? Did I really think I could help him do anything about it? What the hell could a ground pounding death technician do for an officer spook like him?

Why did I even care? Another important question. So humans died in the battles that we caused. So what? I remembered when I was a kid, maybe nine years old, being told my mother was listed KIA. I didn't even blink. I hadn't seen her in four years, not since I turned five and moved into the school barracks while she went back on active service. I barely even recalled her face. She'd once hinted at something that made me think I might have an older sister, but I'd never had any confirmation of that. My father was a total mystery. So if I didn't even care about my own mother getting killed why did I care about people I never met?

I leaned back on the rock to enjoy the heat of the sun and something dug into my side as I lay down. I fished it out of my pocket. My busted Snapper. I turned it over in my hands a couple of times, looking at the shrapnel. I could be lying dead on the mountainside now with whatever did the same job as ravens fighting for my eyeballs. And I'd have died painful and slow with this piece of metal in my guts. But the Snapper got in the way and, deep thinker that I'm not, my only thought had been that I'd better take it back so I didn't get charged for a new one.

"Jadeth?"

I looked around to see Ilyan approaching me smiling.

"Is this an LFR then, Jadeth?"

"Huh?" Then I laughed as I got it. Little fucking rock.

"Right now it's an LFR catching the sun."

"Mmm, yes." He laid one hand on the rock, felt the warm surface. Then he pulled himself up to sit beside me, crossed his legs and sat facing me. I sat up, cross legged too. Like a couple of kids about to play patty cake.

"Jadeth, I wanted to say how pleased I am that you've joined us."

"Yeah." I shrugged. "I guess I can see you're right. And, well, you lot need all the help you can get, because you've got no clue about surviving out here. Well, I guess the Captain knows what she's doing, but the rest of 'em are just kids."

"I know." He looked at me for a while, long enough that I got embarrassed and looked away. "You're having doubts," he said.

I looked back at him, frowned. "Thought you were a Prophet not a mind reader."

"All of them had second thoughts after joining up with me, it's only natural."

"Thing is, thing is. Well, I'm not sure what I can really do for you. I'm a soldier aren't I? That's all I know. Fighting is all I know how to do."

"Yes." He looked down for a moment, at his own hands. Then he held them out. "Take my hands."

"What?" I gave a nervous laugh.

"Go on, take them."

I did, not sure what his game was. His hands weren't small, but they felt almost childlike in mine and I handled them carefully.

"What do you think of my hands? What do they tell you about me?"

Now I felt really awkward, I looked away from him, embarrassed again.

"I dunno."

"Yes you do. Tell me. Be honest, I won't be offended."

I looked back. Well he asked for it.

"They're soft. You've never done a day's work in your life. You've never cleaned a rifle or dug a latrine. You've never had to scrub blood off them." I cringed at that last part, remembering what he'd said yesterday about the blood of millions. "Sorry."

"Don't be sorry."

I tried to pull my hands away but he resisted and I left them there.

"Everything you just said is true. Jadeth, you are a soldier and that's what I want you to go on being. Not just to help us get through the wilderness, not just to protect me and the others. But because I'll be talking to men and women who are like you. Whose hands are as rough as yours and who have no reason to listen to a soft handed spook who doesn't even know what a BFR is."

He took his hands away finally and when he did I was suddenly sorry. His right hand swept his hair back where it had fallen over his face.

"But if they see that someone like you thinks I am worth listening to, then you will be more valuable to me than ten officers. I don't want you to stop being a soldier, Jadeth. I just want you to be a soldier for me."

I sat silent for a moment. He had a way with words. Either with a crowd, or twelve inches from your nose he had a way of talking right to some bit of your brain that gave you your orders and decided you were going to do what Ilyan asked.

I stood up and he leant back to look up at me standing tall and high on the rock. I'd picked up the Snapper as I rose, feeling the shrapnel in it that could have killed me and killed the machine instead.

Fate.

Because the shell hit I didn't get fragged by the lizards. The shell should have killed me but it didn't because of the Snapper. But because the Snapper didn't work any more I got lost. And because I got lost I found the weirdo squad and Ilyan.

Fate put me here, at this man's side. Why? Well I guess I'd just have to wait and see.

I wound up and tossed the Snapper deep into the forest. It vanished among the trees. I grinned. That felt good. I stepped off the rock, landed light and turned back to offer Ilyan a hand down.

"My friends call me Jad."
 

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